Tuesday, July 20, 2010

The Land of Failed Fathers

I’ve known men, I swear,

Whose children tended toward honor.

Gringo men, with frozen hips,

Genetic enemies of tropical moves.

Well, maybe I lie. Probably they were

Really Latinos, holding the hand

Of a golden child on a tropical sidewalk.

A child, straining upward, so proud of her meaningless father.

What is it that goes wrong

Just north of here? What makes

The same child in northern version

So indifferent? So Jesus I don’t need you cold?

A few degrees of latitude and things go to hell.

When I die, I think, you’ll miss me

But the truth is to the north.

The truth is no, not, never, in this life.

I never got your approval, was never

Good enough. But you were, I insist.

There are geraniums above on the balconies

And heaven somewhere above those.

And there, maybe there, I will dance for you

Hips loosened as if by surgery. Heart open

As if I could fly to that iron-railed balcony

Or beyond. Or above. In some circular flight.

But meanwhile, I am tied to this dream of tropical life…

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